HOLDING BACK THE TEARS

I kind of keep asking myself little questions Like where do I go from here I seem to keep losing track of time and how long it's been Since I last had you near Been a painful road to a door that's closed Been a gamble that I knew I couldn't win Been a lonely conversation to this photograph of you In the mirror there's a sign I must give in So I'm not holding back the tears anymore Tryin' escape the heartache, tryin' escape emotion No I'm not holding back the tears anymore Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the times That I depended on you I used to enjoy spending time on my own here Watching the jaded people pass Now here I am sharing their pain and their lonely tears And walking a road of broken glass It's a constant fight to get through each day and night It's a war between the present and the past And the face that's in your mind every time you close your eyes What's the reason, what's the answer, how long will this last So I'm not holding back the tears anymore I'm tryin' escape the heartache, tryin' escape emotion So I'm not holding back the tears anymore Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the times That I depended on you Been a long long time since I heard your last goodbye Still I hear it clearly every day and night What's the point in love when you have to give it up But still you need it and it's nowhere you can find So I'm not holding back the tears anymore I'm tryin' escape the heartache, I'm tryin' escape emotion No I'm not holding back the tears anymore Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the times Holding back the tears anymore Tryin' escape the heartache, I'm tryin' escape emotion No I'm not holding back the tears anymore Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the times That I depended on you