BEAUTIFUL

Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own everybody has a private world where they can be alone are you calling me? Are you trying to get through are you reaching out for me, like I'm reaching out for you? I'm just so fucking depressed, I just can't seem to get out this slump If I could just get over this hump but I need something to pull me out this dump I took my bruises, took my lumps, fell down and I got right back up but I need that spark to get psyched back up in order for me to pick the mic back up I don't know how or, why or when, I ended up in this position I'm in I'm starting to feel distant again so I decided just to pick this pen up and try to make an attempt to vent but I can't admit or come to grips with the fact that I may be done with rap, I need a new outlet and I know some shit's so hard to swallow but I just can't sit back and wallow in my own sorrow, but I know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow one tough act to follow I'll be one tough act to follow here today gone tomorrow, but you'd have to walk a thousand miles... In my shoes, just to see what it's like to be me I'll be you, lets trade shoes just to see what it'd be like to feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's minds just to see, what we find, look at shit thru each others eyes but don't let‘em say you ain't beautiful whoa, they can all get fucked just stay true to you so don't let‘em say you ain't beautiful whoa, they can all get fucked just stay true to you so... I think I'm startin' to lose my sense of humor, everything's so tense and gloom I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature of the room just as soon as I walk in it's like all eyes on me, so I try to avoid any eye contact cause if I do that then it opens the door for conversation like I want that I'm not looking for extra attention I just wanna be just like you blend in with the rest of the room maybe just point me to the closest restroom I don't need no fucking man servant trying to follow me around and wipe my ass laugh at every single joke I crack and half of‘em ain't even funny like ha! Marshall your so funny man, you should be a comedian God damn unfortunately I am, I just hide behind the tears of a clown so why don't you all sit down, listen to the tale I'm about to tell hell, we don't gotta trade our shoes and you don't gotta walk no thousand miles... In my shoes, just to see what it's like to be me I'll be you, lets trade shoes just to see what it'd be like to feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's minds just to see, what we find, look at shit thru each others eyes but don't let‘em say you ain't beautiful whoa, they can all get fucked just stay true to you so don't let‘em say you ain't beautiful whoa, they can all get fucked just stay true to you so... Nobody asked for life to deal us with these bullshit hands we're dealt we gotta take these cards ourselves and flip‘em don't expect no help now I could have either just sat on my ass and pissed and moaned or take this situation in which I'm placed in and get up and get my own I was never the type of kid to wait by the door and pack his bags and sat on the porch and hoped and prayed for a dad to show up who never did I just wanted to fit in every single place, every school I went I dreamed of being that cool kid even if it meant acting stupid Aunt Edna always told me keep making that face it'll get stuck like that meanwhile I'm just standing there holding my tongue tryin' to talk like this ‘till I stuck my tongue on that frozen stop sign pole at 8 years old I learned my lesson then cause I wasn't tryin' to impress my friends no more but I already told you my whole life story, not just based on my description cause where you see it from where your sittin' it's probably 110% different I guess we would have to walk a mile in each others shoes at least what size you wear? I wear 10's, lets see if you can fit your feet... In my shoes, just to see what it's like to be me I'll be you, lets trade shoes just to see what it'd be like to feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's minds just to see, what we find, look at shit thru each others eyes but don't let‘em say you ain't beautiful whoa, they can all get fucked just stay true to you so don't let‘em say you ain't beautiful whoa, they can all get fucked just stay true to you so... Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own everybody has a private world where they can be alone are you calling me? Are you trying to get through are you reaching out for me, like I'm reaching out for you?