Deep Within

I was asked one day. If I had a can of memories Would it have an expiration date to forget or not to forget Can I choose to drain away my hearts resounding blues Just when I thought I reached my destination I was only back to where I first started Becoming who I've always hated the unbecoming unleashed So won't you speak to me... Bad sense of humor. Uttered softly, spilled some coffee You stained my clothes as well as my clear conscience. Probably accidental But the thoughts that crossed my mind would leave you Petrozoomin by unrecordable with pad and pencil Anyway I tremble symbolizing my temperature rising Reminiscing the times when I'd do anything for you But not knowing why, like Abraham sacrificing Isaac I worshipped you. You were my idol, silly But right around now. I find no desire As a matter of fact. I'm biased against all your opinions Dry rose. Once lively and captured your heart But now destined to be crushed and becomes dust Till death do us part ashes to ashes I once died for this world. But now born again My barefeet on cold cement waiting on the day of resurrection irrelevant Small talks with you that take us no where I don't know how I was able to bear. The way you didn't show care I guess I harbored resentment this whole time Never exposed what's been on my mind. But now you know Self denial... used to numb my pain But nowadays I can't find the novocane ways to hide what I already know I'd rather you shout nonsense than to whisper hurtful truth Just when I though I got all I wanted I realized I lost just about everything Saying what I've never said to anyone breathing murderous thoughts So won't you speak to me... Three words of truth shine deep within me anchoring my stormy heart I need faith. to see what I can't see yes I need hope, to keep me going and I need love, your love. Safe and sound Maybe that is all I need, deep within...