it's not easy

Closing my eyes, I'm just waiting for the vision Sometimes I can't tell which world inside of me is real When I wake up in the morning I feel that yesterday is like water And I've been living in the water until now Avoiding all the sound Just looking at the wall What am I waiting for Someone's pity or someone who cares about me? I know what's wrong But I don't know what you want me to do And I know I am irritating you Fuu… I just really want to find out who I am It's not easy I've been told “you seem to live somewhere far from here” Yes I do But are you really here, too? No one really wants to touch me And I don't know how to touch them too Waiting for sleep to come You think about tomorrows But I'm thinking about the days that have led up to today Closing my eyes, I'm just waiting for the vision Sometimes I can't tell which world inside of me is real Fuu… I just really want to find out who I am It's not easy