IT'S BEEN AWHILE

It's been awhile Since I could hold my head high It's been awhile Since I first saw you It's been awhile Since I could stand on my own two feet again It's been awhile Since I could call you But everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've stretched myself beyond my means It's been awhile Since I could say that I wasn't addicted It's been awhile Since I could say I love myself as well It's been awhile Since I've gone And fucked things up just like I always do It's been awhile But all that shit Seems to disappear when I'm with you But everything I can't remember As fucked up as it may seem The consequences that I've rendered I've gone and fucked up things again Why must I feel this way Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day It's been awhile Since I could look at myself straight It's been awhile Since I said I'm sorry It's been awhile Since I've seen the way The candle lights your face It's been awhile But I can still remember just the way you taste But everything I can't remember As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me It's been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry