six feet under

When I'm gone I hope it takes no thought at all To reminisce at our old photos, stuck to rotted wall Picturesque, full of lovely dreams I'd never wanna let ‘em know how the mighty would fall Days at the start line, simple, fragile, frail Somehow the dark room washed out their every detail When did our hearts lose pulse and tip the scale? Who was I back at the start? Young, foolish, idealistic Thinking I could take what was perfect and “fix it” Sinking even lower, life was good, now it's twisted Deals with the devil that I should have resisted Watching, waiting Conscience fading Romance-speak like “hopes and dreams” are just one Reality is made of many, I'm out-gunned Watching, waiting My self-hating Never figured why I was surprised to find Half-truths are an alibi for straight up lies Now Feels like I'm singing six feet underground This heart is beating without any sound There are no second chances for me Nobody's likely to come back around Upon the ashes of what once grew here I'll plant a seed and depart by night fall Was I the hero no one believed? Was I the villain after all? Innocent days are in distant hindsight And the imminent nostalgia, it hits and blind-sides me What remains couldn't match the dream Or explain how it all went so down-stream Watching, waiting Conscience fading More alone now than ever before A wretched god of a mess on a dusty castle floor Watching, waiting My self-hating Good to be the hate-sink, I can take the blame Collect power from the pointless pain People wanna see the beauty where there is none In a world that doesn't compensate anyone Afraid of ugliness, they back away and run Look at me directly, we're not done Sometimes to do what's right You have got to fight Tooth and nail to Break rules and chase the light I can't stop the noise I can't sleep tonight Would you catch me here, need a sign? Watching, waiting Conscience fading My self-hating Isolating Shade 朽ちていく 理想の花 乾ききった 蜜の味 あの頃の ユートピアが 夢隠しに あったみたい どこまで行けるかな バラバラにされたヒーロー 輝きの暗闇に 堕ちながら再生する Jump, fall, stay alive Just wanna save a live Jump, fall, stay alive Just wanna save a live Jump, fall, left behind Just give me one more try Jump, fall, left behind Just give me one more try Feeling less of a human like every day I've been losing A little more of me, I'm sorry But this beggar is choosin' To run away at the eleventh hour Living in infamy There is nothing left here for me There is nothing left dear to me Cuz I wanna escape it Nothing gets better until I make The decision to double it down And double triple the stakes I'm never giving in I'm invincible Nobody stand in my way I'm a criminal Unwinnable battles cover the city in Syllables In a silence so deafening Never be ever be anyone else Brave 人が人を傷つけて 愛とか夢 着続けて Still dreaming you'll accept me Imperfect, in shambles, it hurts but I want you to smile