Actual Pain

(It's tearing me apart) (Deep inside my heart) Tell me why I hurt this way Should I even love you anymore I don't want to find out why I'm too scared to look behind that door I put my trust in all my faith In every word between us spoken Why do I believe the things you say When my heart's already broken All this pain I feel That's tearing me apart Is what makes you real Deep inside my heart I can only count the ways I earned these scars but they're all tokens Every time I see your face I know my hopes no longer showing I don't need a reason to believe If my faith's already broken How could I let love lead the way When I don't know where I'm going All this pain I feel That's tearing me apart Is what makes you real Deep inside my heart I fought so hard Still I feel like I'm in chains And I gave my heart But the darkness still remained All this pain I feel That's tearing me apart Is what makes you real Deep inside my heart Tell me why I hurt this way Should I even love you anymore I don't wanna find out why I'm too scared to look behind that door